Monday, October 31, 2005
So, apparently, I am like Sandra Bullock. ??? OK.

And I am the reason Hubby gets up in the morning. AWWWWW! He is the best.

We had a really deep discussion last night about how I don't have, "a thing" in this life. He has his music, and I am totally supportive of that. But what do I have? Hubby's theory is that I am the support he needs to get him to that higher level. If he didn't have me he would be Jim Morrison instead of The Beatles. A genius gone before his time. My thing might be, just being the rock he can stand on to get to where he needs to be. For an independent woman like me that kind of needled me but I think I understand. I am modeling myself around Jackie Kennedy. Being the woman in the background doing whatever needs to be done.

Things are good!

(More Later)

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posted by ~M~ @ 10:36 AM   3 comments
Friday, October 28, 2005
I get an email every morning from This was this morning's email. What a way to go into the weekend! (BTW, I am trying to get a degree in nursing. I guess I had filled that out when I signed up for the email but this is the first time it's come up with these emails.)

"In many regards, Marissa, it's as if everyone is playing a giant board game, and this time around you chose the Marissa Sclafani token. Clutch!
Now, the object is not to buy properties, or to contort your body, or to vote others off, but simply to like all that Marissa Sclafani likes, to choose all that Marissa Sclafani wants to choose, and to follow Marissa Sclafani's heart, all in the tiny little turn you're given.
Proceed directly to "GO," and collect your very own Degree in Nursing
- The Universe

Soon to come: Some pics of my pretty cousin and assorted others from last night at her birthday dinner. I hope she had a good time. :)
posted by ~M~ @ 9:21 AM   4 comments
Thursday, October 27, 2005
WEIRD & More Happy Birthday!
First order of business is my Beautiful Cousin Haley's Birthday today! She is 22! Here she is:

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Please send a wave and some Happy Birthday's her way!

Second, Kinda, sorta been tagged by Soapbox.Superstar to show what my desktop looks like. So here you are:

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If you can't tell I like the color green and I like fairies.

As Per Soapbox, I'm tagging everyone!

All you have to do is take a screen shot of your desktop. If you don’t know how, here are some instructions to help:

Click your mouse somewhere on your desktop. Press the Print Screen key on your keyboard—this captures what’s displaying on the entire computer screen.

Once you’ve captured a screen, it is in an area of memory on your computer and will stay there until you copy something else. You can now paste this captured image into a document or into a graphic application such as Microsoft’s Paint (available through Start > Programs > Accessories > Paint) and modify it.

Post it on your site and leave me a comment and let me know you did it.

Third, I just rented my blog out (on BE) again to Shane Gilreath. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE got take a look at his site. He is a poet and the pictures he posts are beautiful.
posted by ~M~ @ 10:58 AM   5 comments
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Pieces of Me
Yeah, I know I'm no Ashlee Simpson. (TG for that!) But I'm a little scattered today so here's some bits & pieces.

1. Yes I have officially christened myself The Goose that Laid the Golden Egg. See here:
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2. Drawing a blank, sorry.

3. An old friend from High School just wrote me a letter saying she misses me and doesn't know why we ever drifted apart. I am touched. Especially since we live less than a mile from each other and I drive past her house just about every day and wonder how she is doing.

4. I got my first friend request from a person I don't know on MySpace. I feel important and interesting.

5. I took this picture the other night. What do you think?
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posted by ~M~ @ 9:49 AM   6 comments
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
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Rest in Peace, Rosa Parks.

I am whiter than white bread but I still look up to Rosa Parks. She is definitely a hero in my book. For black people, for women, for doing what is right in this world. I say thank you to her and hope she is at rest.

Thank you to all my commenters for the zillionth time. I know all I need to do is blog out my frustratons and I will get a ton of encouragement. I do get low alot. It's my own fault. I get so worked up about stuff. I plan on just chilling out about stuff. I hope I can. ;)
posted by ~M~ @ 10:57 AM   5 comments
Monday, October 24, 2005
Another one
And her is the 1,385,762,857th post about how I think I'm manic depressive and need professional help. Friday night was AWESOME! Suck it Easy played at Da Funky Phish and all involved (and there were many) had a smashing good time. I met the founding members of Suck it Easy, specifically Tim Easy who is an all around great guy. He's really interesting and wise. I can see that he's gone through alot in his life and come out on the other side a little better for it. We ended up staying out all night and eating pizza at 4:30 am. Saturday was a wash because I slept all day. Poor hubby had to be at work though at 7:30 am on Saturday so when he got home that night he went right to bed. Sunday I kinda got the blues. Not a good thing. Possibly PMS'ing. Help me. Please
posted by ~M~ @ 12:48 PM   3 comments
Friday, October 21, 2005
New stuff
HEY Y'ALL! It's Friday! Not payday but Friday nonetheless. Got some new stuff around Ho Hum these days. First to the right, down about a quarter of the page is the new Rent my Blog box from BlogExplosion. This week I am hosting Stacie from Mommy's Busy, Take a Number so go on over there and show her some love. Then I have added an AIM remote. I am online all day during the week so add me as a friend and come talk to me. I promise I will talk back. Just ask PoetX. Speaking of PoetX, No the tattoos are not as big as the pictures. They are about three inches long and about 2 inces wide. But aren't they purty?!

And I leave you with this as requested by Dane Cook here. Have a Great Weekend everybody!!!!!!!

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posted by ~M~ @ 10:02 AM   1 comments
Thursday, October 20, 2005
More classification...
I get bored very easily. I cannot amuse myself except on very good days. I tend to go alittle crazy when I am with friends. I think that scares them a little. Except for my crazy frends. Like the pimp. I am a mature woman. I am slowly learning to get intouch with my sexuality. I believe I picked a safe way to do that. With marriage. I like being married. It frees me to focus on other facets of my life (albeit unsuccessfully so far.) I have no sympathy for people who cannot do the basic things in life like laundry and paying bills and getting the car fixed. I am very empathetic to a person who has had tragedy in their life. I think that is what will make me a great nurse. If I can ever freakin get back to school.

OK in other news, Hubby is playing at a place called Da Funky Phish tomorrow night. That is what I had to tell you guys the other day but I didn't want to jinx it. This club is kind of the next step up from garage band on Long Island here. They are listed as *special guest*. ;)

And TADA my new tats: First on is my right arm then both arms together.

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posted by ~M~ @ 11:14 AM   6 comments
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Thanks to Will for reminding me that I/m not the only crazy fucker in the world.

I have not blogged for a few days, mostly because I have been recovering from the bender that was this weekend. Illicit substances consumed, drama ensued, etc. You know the usual twenty something gathering. I kinda think it's a bit funny, I can't seem to remember much of the weekend. I remember bits and pieces and the overwhelming feeling of being lost. And people seemed to want so much from me. Like at the Lounge on Sunday. I had to apologize to John the bartender. Apparently I hadn't come up to say hello, the past two weeks. So I had to spar with him verbally so he could get his fix of me. (I think I might be full of myself!) All that to get a drink! Not just any drink though, a 3/4 full of Sapphire Gin Tom Collins. He is nothing if not a great bartender. High drama in the music scene as well. A new bass player decide to play with Suck it Easy. Well, let's just say he sucked and not very easy. He sucked VERY HARD. The rest of the band members got quite upset and all but threw him off the stage. DRAMA! I can understand Mr. Whisper (aka CR the guitar player and Hubby's new musical soulmate.) He drove into a puddle that was chest deep on thursday after dropping hubby home. Then partied in the city all weekend with NO SLEEP! So that I can understand. The rest I think I imagined in my artificially charged state.

All in all a good weekend that I can laugh at. Isn't that what I'm shooting for lately?

And now for the funny: Thanks to The Onion.

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posted by ~M~ @ 10:57 AM   2 comments
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Am I Crazy?
Seriously, please tell me if I am mean and nasty. I try not to be but people make it so easy for me. Every morning I check my email then I go to Myspace and check if anybody sent me some love. This morning, I got a message in my inbox there from this guy who wasn't a friend. This is the email he sent to me:

From: INDK
Date: Oct 12, 2005 9:17 PM
Yo, dont put plastic wrap on your tat while it heals, youre gonna just smother it, it needs to breathe. All is needed is a small amout of ointment, just enough so its not shinny in the light, too much oinment will also smother it. Just some advise, Ive seen friends tats get screwed cause they didnt heal it right. Have fun, and enjoy the ink.

I'm guessing that was in response to this: My latest tattoo I posted on a tattoo message board.
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This was my response: Please tell me I was sort of nice...

I could be a bitch and send you some message back filled with curse words and LARGE MIDDLE FINGERS, cuz like you don't know me and you're judging me. I shouldn't have to explain myself, (especially today because it's been raining for the LAST FREAKIN FIVE DAYS!) but I will because I am gonna send you some love because you seem to need it. That pic was taken ten minutes after the tat was done. You leave the plastic wrap on for an hour then take it off and wash with Dial antibacterial soap then cover with a thin layer of A&D ointment. See you didn't know the whole story hon. It's ok I forgive you. (AND YES, I am certifiably insane, isn't it great the people you meet online. I'm only a few hours away from you dude. ;))

And then I will leave you with this: I thought it was freaking hilarious.
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
In an effort to classify and define my self:

I am a woman. Too much for some. Not enough for others. I talk way to much especially when I am not sober. I shop at Walmart and the $2 rack at Sears. I obsess about spending $13 on clothes. I get pissed off a people who are condescending. I can be condescending my self sometimes. (Not intentionally, but some people make me shake my head in disbelief.) So in theory I am pissed at myself sometimes. I like green, red and purple. Most of my clothes are those colors. It gets boring sometimes. I very rarely wear skirts. I have ONE pair of jeans. (that's how much I work.) I hate being cold, and driving, especially when it's cold. For those of you who have met me, you know why I hate driving. For those who haven't go here. I have trouble holding on to friendships. They seem to slip away uncontrollably.

For now, that's it. More to come as it is revealed to me.
posted by ~M~ @ 12:52 AM   1 comments
Monday, October 10, 2005

So I am now the Godfather. Interesting though, that was on TV last night as I fell asleep. HMMM...

Got some good news, that I will share with you guys aroung the 24th or so because I don't want to jinx anything.

And Tattoo day is coming up! Yay! Saturday is the day. I will be getting a bee on each wrist.
These are the pics I gave Andreas (My Artist) He's drawing it up for me kinda half realistic and half traditional style.

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Friday, October 07, 2005
Realizations & Revelations
Can I get a Hallelujah over here!

Sorry, whenever I use that word, revelations, I always feel like a preacher. ;)

First order of Business: Everybody wave Happy Birthday to my Mommy! Today is her Birthday and I hope she has a WONDERFUL day!

I have come to the conclusion that I don't have to feel obligated by every single thing. I like this feeling and I'm going to ride it all the way through the weekend!

Happy Friday everyone!

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posted by ~M~ @ 10:22 AM   3 comments
Thursday, October 06, 2005
To be loved,
To be unique,
To be wanted,
To know all of this is true.

That is the key to my life. To find all of these things and not in fits and starts. I think too much. I don't act enough. I do things half assed. I expect too much for the little that I do accomplish. I need that extra oomph, to get past this roadblock in the path of the rest of my life. Thank you to the rest of the world for showing me that. Thank you to my wonderfully sick hubby who puts up with my shit and talks to me for hours to glean the REAL facts of my fears and tribulations. Thank you to all of you bloggers out there who tell me I am not crazy and who I could not do without. My insane, inane ramblings obviously have purpose when put into a public ring such as this. I know all of you bloggers feel the same way: when you start to type and the keys just flow under your fingers it feels good. To have this forum for just me. I have been luckier than most bloggers I think because I have just enough readers to get some feedback on what I write but I'm not a good enough writer to warrant a complaint on what I write. I have seen some blogger shut down their sites because of negative reactions. I feel that is sad. I want to go up to those complainers and smack them with a big, wet, juicy fish upside the head. (OK, my rant has run out of steam)

Again thanks to the hubby and everyone else who shows me support, You guys are the best!
posted by ~M~ @ 1:32 PM   1 comments
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Not much...
Not much to say today. Wish hubby well, he is not feeling well. He had a fever last night and stayed home from work today. Also I am driving around in this:

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I don't particularly like it but it's what the insurance is paying for.

This is my baby which is getting fixed this week.

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And this is my baby who hopefully is feeling better now:

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posted by ~M~ @ 11:00 AM   4 comments
Monday, October 03, 2005
Few bits of Business
Blog Cleaning Day!

First order of business: Pass the Potato

Second order of business: Thank to everyone who had advice for me on Friday. The hubby and I talked and are not fighting anymore. I think we got alot of things out in the open that had been simmering for awhile. We are in a large transition period of our lives right now, and it's getting a bit intense. The problem sometimes is that we don't have the time to sit down and talk things out because our schedules are so different. I work days and he works night and it's like there is no time to sit down for a couple of minutes. But things have been worked out. Again Thanks, everybody!

Third order of business: I have been drinking ALOT. I don't think I have a problem but last night I got so drunk I got sick. Now, I can hold my liquor, and I only drink socially (on the weekends) but I have not been smart lately with what I'm drinking. Last night I had half a Coors Light, Two Tom Collins with about 3/4 gin in the glass and a dirty Martini. I think it was the martini which sent me over the edge. A dirty Martini for those of you who don't know is gin, a bit of vermouth and some olive juice. I love olives so when the bartender and I started talking about my love for gin and olives.. he suggested a dirty Martini... on the house. And your girl here just will not pass up a free drink. It was pretty good. Salty. But it tasted weird. I don't know what it's supposed to taste like, so I couldn't tell if it was bad.

Very hungover this morning, but I got a nice greasy bacon, egg & cheese sandwich from the deli, with some coffee and a GIANT size Gatorade and I'm feeling much better.

Now I know some of you are probably going to Tut, Tut me but I'm having fun and going a bit crazy. Which I think we all need to do sometimes.

Sign me today as **Crazy Lady Jane!**
posted by ~M~ @ 2:28 PM   5 comments
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